The fun part about pregnancy is ...

Feeling your baby moves and kicks!!

By far, this is the most exciting journey in a pregnancy. Forget the heartburn. Ignore the no-appetite nausea moment. And remember those wonderful kicks! Feeling a life inside you moves and kicks and squirms around in your little belly... what more should you expect? This is already the best feeling ever on earth! Nothing beats it...

Baby boy is one active guy.. He moves a lot and I love it much. It's not pain yet, but it's full of fun feeling those squirms. But, the moment I put my hands on my belly, baby boy stops squirming. Little boy knows how to play hide and seek...=D

Looking at the waves on my belly, I smiled. I wanted Ashlynn to look at those waves, but this big sister would just go "Hi", lies down on my belly and kisses little brother. This is already sweet enough ... I just can't wait for the day little boy arrives and capture the first moment, when big sister meets little brother! 

God is awesome! I love my pregnancy.. I love this moment ... I bottled up these priceless experience.. And I will remember it forever! I love all my babies! ;)

When guilt strikes.......

I feel so uneasy now, it looks like I've not been nourishing my baby well in the womb. Compared to my previous pregnancy with the big sister, I've been eating so well and very particular in my food intake. But in this 2nd pregnancy, I've been so free and easy. I've not been eating the balance diet, fish and vege.. but most of the time, pasta, burger, simple mee soup, not even healthy chicken soup. Not only that, 17 weeks pregnant and I haven't even finish my one box of Anmum Materna.... Gosh! I'm freaking out now!

I need to buckle up and get my feet running.... I need to catch up with all the missing nutrients. Yetserday my mom reminded me, Eat healthy, baby also healthy. Sigh.... when guilt strikes, I feel so miserable! I feel so guilty for not pampering my baby with healthy food. What have I been eating lately? =(

Sorry baby, mommy going to eat so well now, from today onwards. I pray that you continue to grow healthily and strong!

Love you forever!

MY ANCHOR HOLDS WITHIN THE VEIL.....

I randomly typed Hillsongs in youtube and saw this new album named Cornerstone. Interesting, they have new album released and yet I didn't know about it. I was listening to the entire album until the last song, Cornerstone. I was in awe, this song came right in time. When I need some faith, assurance, love and hope ... I received them all from this song. MY ANCHOR HOLDS WITHIN THE VEIL!

Weak made strong, in the Savior's love ...... I feel that I'm weak, so weak... troubled with so many worries, worry if our baby is developing well. Suffering from 2 miscarriages seemed to be a huge trauma to me. Every pregnancy, I fear. When I don't feel pregnant, I fear, I panic, my mind started to think wild. Is everything ok? Every checkups, I walked in with a racing heartbeat. Despite all these fears, I know I'm covered with Savior's love.. but where is my trust?  One second I said I trust Him, the other second, I started to doubt.

Believe it or not, I listened to this song over and over again the entire morning till now, it's already 2pm in office. The lyrics is good enough to stir your faith, to stir your spirit and re-energized.

 

-Verse 1-
My hope is built on nothing less
than Jesus' blood and righteousness
I dare not trust the sweetest frame
but wholly trust in Jesus' name

-Chorus-
Christ alone, Cornerstone
Weak made strong, in the Savior's love
Through the storm
He is Lord, Lord of All

-Verse 2-
When darkness seems to hide His face
I rest on His unchanging grace
In every high and stormy gale
My anchor holds within the veil

My anchor holds within the veil

He is Lord, Lord of all

-Verse 3-
Then He shall come with trumpets sound
Oh, may I then in Him be found
Dressed in His righteousness alone
faultless, stand before the throne

Faith.....

Worries never stop bombarding my mind since the day I knew I'm carrying baby no2. Lots of worries. And I never stop worrying. I worry almost about everything.

The main common worries:
1) Is baby doing ok?
2) Is baby having strong heartbeat?
3) Why not much morning sickness?
4) Why I don't feel hungry today?
5) Why I don't feel pregnant?
6) Will this affect my baby?

We will be having checkup this coming Fri and I do hope that everything goes well. Praying and believing that baby is growing well, strong heartbeat, amniotic fluid is perfect..... Praying and stop worrying.

But, carrying baby no2, I'm more calm. I feel that even though I have worry, but I didn't worry that much, it's just a worry. And one voice kept assuring me that everything will be alright, everything will be ok. Baby is growing healthy. I believe in God, whatever it is, I know His plans are perfect, and all things work for good for those who love Him. I pray, I put my hope and trust in Him, I build up my faith to the things unseen. I can't see my baby growing inside, I still couldn't feel any kicks yet, but I have faith and am building them. Planting my faith on a solid ground....

Well, everything will be good. God says YES and I know I'm BLESSED! Amen!