Nausea....

Nausea is kicking in, but the major problem is I'm not able to vomit out. This has been going on for the past few weeks. I got the feeling of wuuu-wekkkk, but when I rush to the toilet, nothing comes out. The greasy feeling is stuck inside and I'm feeling so uncomfortable.. but on a side note, I'm glad that I have these symptoms, mainly to know that our baby is Growing!

Checkup in 2 weeks time... I wish the time could come faster, that I say goodbye to 1st trimester, welcome 2nd trimester with a big smile and then no more secrets between friends/colleagues who are wondering what's wrong with me lately. =)

God is good!

Gynae Visit at 8 weeks 6 days

Thank you Lord! All worries gone when we saw our baby developing so well, with such a strong heartbeat. God is good!

As usual, I breathed a breath of relieved when I saw our baby's flickering heartbeat. Dr Paul was glad as well. He said I found what I wanted to see, that's your baby's heartbeat. I smiled. Yes, my baby's heartbeat. *melts*

At least I know everything is well, our baby is well, our baby is good, our baby is growing... everything is perfect. Our baby is now 2.11cm. How much our baby has grown. The last checkup at 6 weeks, our baby measured 0.591cm. Go baby Go! Stay healthy and strong!

The next checkup will be on 5 Nov whereby we will do a down syndrome scan. 3 weeks to go. Pray that everything goes well. Our baby is perfect and healthy.

Oh yeah, this time round, the checkup is cheaper. RM90 only. Well, PCMC is more relax compare to SDMC especially when we do our checkup early in the morning. =)

MY ANCHOR HOLDS WITHIN THE VEIL.....

I randomly typed Hillsongs in youtube and saw this new album named Cornerstone. Interesting, they have new album released and yet I didn't know about it. I was listening to the entire album until the last song, Cornerstone. I was in awe, this song came right in time. When I need some faith, assurance, love and hope ... I received them all from this song. MY ANCHOR HOLDS WITHIN THE VEIL!

Weak made strong, in the Savior's love ...... I feel that I'm weak, so weak... troubled with so many worries, worry if our baby is developing well. Suffering from 2 miscarriages seemed to be a huge trauma to me. Every pregnancy, I fear. When I don't feel pregnant, I fear, I panic, my mind started to think wild. Is everything ok? Every checkups, I walked in with a racing heartbeat. Despite all these fears, I know I'm covered with Savior's love.. but where is my trust?  One second I said I trust Him, the other second, I started to doubt.

Believe it or not, I listened to this song over and over again the entire morning till now, it's already 2pm in office. The lyrics is good enough to stir your faith, to stir your spirit and re-energized.

 

-Verse 1-
My hope is built on nothing less
than Jesus' blood and righteousness
I dare not trust the sweetest frame
but wholly trust in Jesus' name

-Chorus-
Christ alone, Cornerstone
Weak made strong, in the Savior's love
Through the storm
He is Lord, Lord of All

-Verse 2-
When darkness seems to hide His face
I rest on His unchanging grace
In every high and stormy gale
My anchor holds within the veil

My anchor holds within the veil

He is Lord, Lord of all

-Verse 3-
Then He shall come with trumpets sound
Oh, may I then in Him be found
Dressed in His righteousness alone
faultless, stand before the throne

Faith.....

Worries never stop bombarding my mind since the day I knew I'm carrying baby no2. Lots of worries. And I never stop worrying. I worry almost about everything.

The main common worries:
1) Is baby doing ok?
2) Is baby having strong heartbeat?
3) Why not much morning sickness?
4) Why I don't feel hungry today?
5) Why I don't feel pregnant?
6) Will this affect my baby?

We will be having checkup this coming Fri and I do hope that everything goes well. Praying and believing that baby is growing well, strong heartbeat, amniotic fluid is perfect..... Praying and stop worrying.

But, carrying baby no2, I'm more calm. I feel that even though I have worry, but I didn't worry that much, it's just a worry. And one voice kept assuring me that everything will be alright, everything will be ok. Baby is growing healthy. I believe in God, whatever it is, I know His plans are perfect, and all things work for good for those who love Him. I pray, I put my hope and trust in Him, I build up my faith to the things unseen. I can't see my baby growing inside, I still couldn't feel any kicks yet, but I have faith and am building them. Planting my faith on a solid ground....

Well, everything will be good. God says YES and I know I'm BLESSED! Amen!

6 weeks 5 days - First visit to the Doctor!

It was our first time to PCMC with Dr Paul Tay and we had a good experience even though the first visit was quite expensive compared to SDMC. It cost us RM194 for first visit, but the subsequent visit, it will be cheaper. Let's see how low it can go...

We entered the consultation room and Dr Paul greeted us with a smile. I still miss Dr Lee (my previous gynae), he's a straight forward guy, and every time I asked him a question, I can expect what the answer gonna be. Sometimes he's funny, sometimes he's serious.. but most of the time, he will go straight to the point.

Well, back to Dr Paul. He keyed in all my previous records into the system and we roughly know that giving birth in PCMC is slightly higher than SDMC. I told him that I was on Duphaston and he said if I feel better with it, just continue with 1 tablet 3 times a day, until 10 weeks.

After everything, it was time for scan. My heart pumped faster than usual, hoping to see our baby implanted at the right place and growing well. And, of course, a strong heartbeat.

Thank God! Everything went so well, the first thing I checked on my baby was the heartbeat. When I saw the tiny heart flickered consistently on the monitor, I breathed a breath of relieved. Thank you God! We saw the sac, we saw our baby, we saw the flickered heartbeat, we heard the heart beating consistently ...... everything is so great!

Can you see our baby in this monitor? I already fell in love with him/her! Can't wait to go through another season of pregnancy and labor and taking care of newborn and sleepless night.... but as long as my bub is growing well, it's all worth it. Even though I already have the experience of taking care of a newborn baby, but when the time comes, it's all new again and I'm sure I'm gonna be nervous. Lol. =D

I'm so happy! Baby no2 is on the wayyyyyyyyyyy..................................

Oh yeah, it was so coincidence that Ashlynn was born on 28 Sept, 12:13pm and we had our first scan on baby no2 on 28 Sept, 12:13pm too!!! Both are my precious!! =DD